Happy Halloween Jack!!

I think he likes to actually wear costumes as opposed to a pumpkin!! We still have yet to do his last costume of the day his giraffe!!!

Pumpkins & Pumping

I am just sitting here hooked up to my breast pump at 7:00 a.m. hoping my father in law does not come walking up the stairs soon as the in-laws are visiting. I DO not exactly look like the lovely pictures I posted hooked up to this MILK machine. Kim calls me BESSIE!!! It truly is a lovely sight to see really! Kim tried to take a pic of me the other day and I kindly said no.....can you imagine Jack looking at that picture when he was 18!!!!
WARNING-try not to Blog and pump at the same time like I am. I just looked down and my right cup is full and my left is empty because I was hooked up wrong! Now I have to be on here twice as long!!!! and now my right breast feels like its going to fall off.
To DAVE my only male reader....I am soooo sorry you have to read this post if you are still reading that is!!!
I am an a bottle feeding new mother and now I am officially out of the closet! Not breast feeding your child in this day in age is pretty much a flippin' crime if you talk to some people and it is a really really sensitive subject that for some reason is not written about in books these days. When women cannot breast feed or simply choose not to its like we are evil mothers that are torturing our babies. It is supposed to be the most natural way to feed a baby but NO ONE tells you how hard and painful it can be and how often it simply does NOT work for people. It did not work for me at all. My milk did not come in for a few days and Jack decided that he preferred to eat the skin off my nipples rather than latch properly. I contacted lactation specialists that tried to help me MANY times but it simply was a disaster. I could often be found trying to nurse Jack propped up by a gazillion pillows, bawling and crying huge tears that would fall on his tiny little head. I would basically be in fear when it came time for him to nurse....it was a disaster. Now I pump and supplement with contraband known as formula and guess what he is still alive and actually thriving!!!
I decided to come out of the closet about my bottle feeding and no longer be "ashamed"of my decision after reading my favorite bloggers recent post. Check it out HERE. After reading her post I sent her a message over on Facebook and she sent me a really great message that made me feel good about my choice. She is thinking of starting a support group for us banished bottle feeding mothers.....I am going to be the 1st to join hahahha!!!
On another note we shoved Jack in a pumpkin yesterday and took a few HAPPY HALLOWEEN shots that he clearly LOVED!!! Sorry for the blurry photography its just that he was SO upset I was shooting so fast I did not check my settings. Poor little man!!!

Only in The Ghetto...oops I mean Meadow Part 2

This is a print I saw over at www.ohdeedoh.com and I want it!!!
OK so in all honesty I am 2 days off the shred. What he heck I know. 2 days on and 2 days off. Jack has not been sleeping that great and I am TIRED. I know I now not an excuse at all. Tomorrow I am shredding I swear.
Tonight we went out for supper to Meadow's finest establishment called the Bear's Den. It's a really high class kind of place where they actually have all patio furniture as their dining decor. It was fine until the 15 year-old skid kids playing pool almost hit me in the head with a pool cue a few times as we were seated right next to the pool tables.
My favorite Meadow moment of the week was today when I was at the Pharmacy waiting for a prescription when a Meth addict so kindly budded in front of me and demanded her crack drugs from the pharmacist. The Pharmacist took time away from filling my prescription to serve that crack head. It took forever and I finally just left because I was too busy winning mother of the year having Jack waiting in the LOCKED car for me!!!!
ONLY IN MEADOW!!!!!!
I get to go home to Saskatoon in just over a week and I am so excited!!!!
I am now looking for some good organic soy based baby formula. If anyone knows a good brand please let me know!

Shred Day 2 complete

WOW Jack had an awesome night last night!!! We usually wait until he let's us know he is hungry....the loud fierce cries are our usual alarm system. However last night we woke him up to feed just once and it set the tone for a wonderful night which woke me up just once!!! I do not want to jinx our system but I hope it works again tonight because I feel soooo much better!!
The picture of Ruby sleeping on the couch was taken last night.....what a doll that girl is. I love her soooo much!!!
Speaking of LOVE check out Jack sleeping on the couch as well. What a guy. He is there right now napping away. Oh and the stink eye...he is really good and giving us the old stink eye for no reason!! He better not do that when he is older I tell you I had enough of that look in the classroom and my child will NEVER do that to a teacher EVER!!
I am having trouble uploading pics:(
Just finished Day two of the Shred and Kim did it with me. It kicked his butt!!

Shred

Today is the day I have started Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred. I bought this DVD in Vegas when I was prego and I have been waiting to check it out. I am now 5 weeks postpartum and I have decided I am ready. I have yet to check with my doctor but I am sure it will be fine!
I did the DVD today and it was really really good. I have to use my abdomend as I could feel my c-section area when I was doing jumping jacks. I think this DVD is really good because the workout are only 20 minutes long but quite intense. Well....they felt intense to me as I am SO out of shape. I really need to build muscle to carry my little 12 pound tub of love Jack around.I have worked out with a number of trainers in the past ( pre-baby) and I think this DVD is VERY similar to a work-outs I have done with trainers. The best part is the time commitment because with a 1 month old I just do not know exactly when I can get to the gym or get an hour long work-out in.
I can and will commit to doing this for 30 days.
I am wanting to post some before shots and measurements sometime soon but I am a little scared to do so right now. I am inspired by my good friend DAVE'S weight loss journey.

More on my post-baby fitness plan later. I am excited to get my new HUNTER boots. I bought online just a few minutes ago! I think they will sever me well here in Meadow with all the snow we are getting. YES it started to snow today. I know they are not snow boots but I plan to use them with super thick socks as snow boots once in awhile!!!

Jack is getting cuter and cuter each day! My husband has been home all weekend and has been hanging out with Jack sooo much! Its wonderful!

Jack is 1 month old!!

I cannot believe it has been one month since Jack arrived! I am now finally getting into the swing of things. I am able to stay awake during the day better and basically just function better every day. This past week I was in Saskatoon for 5 days and it was blissful. I love and miss all my friends and family soo much!!! I am looking forward to going back next month as it is my goal to get there at least once a month. Next time I hope to make it all the way back without having to stop and feed him on the side of a dark dirt road. It was a nightmare...he messed his diaper really bad and was freaking out to eat. I took his clothes off but could not get a clean outfit back on him. So I stuck him in his seat with two blankets on him and CRANKED the heat in the car! To top it off there were 3 strange men on the side of the road that wanted a boost......ahh. It was all good we eventually made it home and we both survived.

Thanksgiving

It is Thanksgiving long weekend here and the weather is AMAZING!!! I survived my 1st week alone with Jack and I have to say it went rather well. Maybe it is because Kim was working nights and he took over the night shift as soon as he got home at 1:00 a.m.
LAst night was the 1st night he slept in his crib alone and he did great!
He is a hungry little monster this guy and has been eating a lot. The pics are of him airing out his tushy as he has a horrible diaper rash at the moment poor little man.
I have to go and pump and Jack is kinda loosing it so I will try and write more later!!

October so far

Wow Jack has been keeping me super duper busy I barely have time to be on the computer or anything else for that matter. We are working on a 2.5 hour window of opportunity these days. He wakes up and demands to be fed, ultimately whatever I have fed him goes right through him and we change diapers right after, we hang out for a bit, change diapers again and then nap time. I seriously have no time to go to the bathroom let alone shower sometimes.
I am slowly getting the hang of this mommy stuff although it has taken me awhile. Actually Kim is at work right now for the 1st and I am all alone.....and I have not broken down yet!! Wow I actually feel good:) My hormones have been insanely out of whack and I was a bit of a crying machine there for awhile but I think I am getting through it. I am just missing home soo much right now. I miss my family, my friends and all that Saskatoon has to offer. My entire support system is in Saskatoon and I never realized it until Jack arrived. I am sort of not liking Meadow at all right now but I know I have to stay positive and make the best of it. It is hard sometimes when I go downtime and see how many low life losers there are all over this place......it is quite disgusting actually!!!!
I am trying to take a picture of him each day although it can be challenging for me to remember! Jack LOVES LOVES LOVES his tummy time and he is actually napping on his belly right now....shhhhh don't tell the parenting experts out there...I am a horrible mother that is actually letting my kid nap on his belly!!!!
Ruby is a soother maniac. She LOVES finding and destroying soothers....what a stinker:)